I’m so tired that that I made coffee and forgot to drink it …. And then my level of tired increased from the effort of making coffee but I forgot why until just now
when u try to caffeinate yourself and just end up increasing ur heart rate with no discernible changes in levels of exhaustion
I’m going to try my best to make today a good day. I’m out of medicine and everything is stressful and ominous.
Lately I’ve really been wanting to share what I’m going through but I don’t want to give energy to the negative emotions. I’m just afraid it won’t get better is all, that everyone I love is going to leave, and that one day my efforts are going to be for nothing. I’ve lost everything before and it can happen again. But you know, so much of life is perspective and I don’t want to be a slave to my anxiety and fear. But some nights the screaming in my head doesn’t stop and my husband is fast sleep… I just watch him and think to myself, “I’m sorry for the pain I’m going to cause.”